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Stockholm, April 14, 1994
Zanna Kiljander Lindskog, 7, is happy. She is allowed to carry pots to the litter box on the patio and in the kitchen window on the first floor she sees how Mama Sabina prepares dinner.
Later, a friend comes to the apartment and cuts her mother’s curly blonde hair. Zanna doesn’t think she should cut as much, and she keeps a long hairstyle in her room.
It is their last night together.
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Sabina Lindskog, 30, works as a cashier at a grocery store in Stockholm. He is almost always happy, likes to talk on the phone and remodel his house in the apartment.
On the night of April 14, 1994, she decides to go to a downtown bar. The 7-year-old daughter, Zanna, sleeps with her neighbor, but they pick her up when Mom arrives home after midnight.
Sabina then has the company of a man. Zanna still wants to sleep in her mother’s bed. She understands
– I was so mom. It was probably a little rough, because I always wanted to be with her, says Zanna.
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The next memory image is mom Sabina in night linen. The man enters the bedroom and Zanna closes. She hears her mother say “stop smoking” and “stop smoking.” Zanna tries to stay still and pretends to sleep.
– At some point I turn around and look. Then he sits on her, his hands against her. I just wanted it to end, to somehow be clear. But I didn’t realize I had killed her.
The man tells Zanna to go to bed in her room.
When she wakes up the next morning, Mom is not awake. It is Friday, a school day. No one has cooked breakfast in the kitchen and the aquarium in Zanna’s room, which Mom always turns off, is still lit.
She enters the bedroom. There, Sabina’s mother lies in bed, with blankets and pillows around her. Lifeless.
– I tried to wake her up, but she didn’t wake up and I started to panic. I know I really asked her to wake up and started crying. She was purple and blue.
She calls the neighbors, but no one opens. Zanna now has to go back to the apartment.
Later, Grandma calls and Zanna tells her that she can’t wake Mom up.
Soon after, the ambulance arrives.
– I walked for several days and asked myself: when will my mother come? Actually, I don’t know exactly when I realized he was gone.
In February 1996, the man is sentenced in the district court for murdering Sabina Lindskog. The High Court changes the verdict at will to the death of another and writes that the investigation provides no evidence that he Deliberately deprived of life by Sabina Lindskogbut that he “Through her active actions, Sabina Lindskog put her in such a situation that she could not breathe, creating a danger to her life.”
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Gävle, May 8, 2020
Zanna Kiljander Lindskog is now 33 years old and has her own daughter who will soon be seven years old. She is named after her grandmother and is called Sabina in the middle name.
Zanna had to go to therapy when her daughter was born.
– I am so afraid of my daughter that it is abnormal that she is somehow separated from me. But when I look at her now, I also understand how I thought. I have to be strong for her, “says Zanna.
– I don’t think I became what I would be in any way. Not only is my mother murdered and I was there, but there are many things within me. It seems that I am fighting for a little seven-year-old boy that nobody saw, that nobody found the necessary help. And I think it often happens that children are set apart.
She does not want Sabina Lindskog’s death forgotten.
– She was a great mother, and I just want her to really shine, because I think it’s worth it. I want you to see it.
