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In his bunker he keeps the emblem of the traffic police hanging. A paradox, because Marco Brocca, 25 years oldFrom 2013 until today you have only seen the roads that separate Treviso from Padua (twice), Vicenza, Milan, Vigevano, Lucca, 2,238 kilometers round trip. In spans, a total of 875 meters per day. Otherwise, no more than fifty exits in the district. «I also went to Pesaro with Blablacar. I would have liked to be reunited with my father, whom I had not seen for years, but the trip ended badly. Brocca suffers from adaptive social discomfort typical of Japanese children. It is a hikikomori. It means “step aside.” He does it in the tavern of the house, an unadorned room, two windows placed at ground level, a sofa, a coat rack and the desk with the computer monitor on it, in front of which he spends 12 hours a day. It is your only contact with the rest of the world. He sticks his head out just to prepare his own food, when mother Patrizia, a 118 Emergency Service nurse, and the eighteen-year-old sister are absent. «The first three years were of total seclusion. Now I meet some friends, once a month. I only go out for medical exams.
What happened to her?
«I have always suffered from chronic dermatitis. For 40 percent it was the cause of my parents’ separation. My father is a non vax, he wanted to cure me with homeopathy. He claimed that he had ruined me at the age of 3 months from the mandatory vaccinations. But it is false: in his family branch there is a trace of this eczema ».
Do you miss your dad?
“I miss a father figure.”
Do you remember when this story started?
“In second grade. I attended the Itis Max Planck in Villorba. Around Easter I was hospitalized in Dermatology for ten days. While we were waiting for the discharge certificate, my mother told me: “Go back to school tomorrow.” I decided that I would not. An unconscious choice. I felt like I was in a well.
And what he did?
“I barricaded myself in the bedroom, with the bed facing the door to prevent anyone from entering. After two days, Mom stopped screaming. But he disconnected the internet and requisitioned my PC. I read baby mouse, Harry Potter me the Chronicles of Narnia».
Were you the victim of bullies at school?
Since the sixth grade. Lfor mine it is a diversity that is immediately noticeable and I couldn’t do anything about it. I couldn’t accept myself. The skin rashes on my arms, legs and neck give me an irresistible itch. When scratching, the dermatitis becomes even more noticeable, leading to bleeding. The companions looked at me with disgust ».
Did they offend you?
“They called me a leper, but in a low voice: I had gone from 1.70 to 1.95 in height and they feared me. Or zombies, because burning kept me awake at night and I would appear in the classroom with dark circles.
Couldn’t you ask the teachers for help?
“I did, but it was useless. There was camaraderie, you had to prove you were a man with punches and slaps. A friend of mine reported to a teacher that he had been punched in the stomach and the reply was, ‘Yeah come on, they were joking.’
Didn’t your mother turn to the director?
“I begged him not to. Due to the incessant itching, I was never able to finish my homework. Mom and teachers were convinced that I was lazy, so I decided to agree with them and began to intentionally fail in all subjects.
Until?
Until the end of the eighth grade. As I went through high school, I started having a lot, a lot, a lot, a lot, a lot of anxiety. A peak of stress, therefore of dermatitis. It looked like a tomato.
There’s no cure?
“No, apart from Atarax, an anxiolytic.”
More in the banks?
«I enrolled in the evening courses of Itis Mazzotti in Treviso. I left at 5 in the afternoon and returned home at 11. On the third, in December, I stopped ».
Did you study on your own?
“Just the languages. English to perfection. I understand Spanish very well. Russian I know halfway. I don’t like French and little German ».
What did you want to become as a child?
“A paleontologist”.
At what age did you have your first PC?
“At 13. At that time I felt outgoing and perfectly normal.”
And the first mobile phone?
“A 1st. A Nokia. My aunt Cristina gave it to me for my first communion. But I didn’t want it. I’ve never used it.”
When did you discover social networks?
“At 20. I have accounts on Instagram and Twitter. I rarely use Facebook.
How is your typical day?
«I’m on the computer from 10 to 23. I stop just to cook something, sometimes at 5 pm instead of 1 pm I go to bed at 1 or 2 am, without turning off the computer. If I can’t sleep, I’ll use it again. ‘
Do you surf the Internet?
“I work. I coach esports enthusiasts around the world who want to become Overwatch or Valorant champions.”
Sanskrit, for me.
“Video games. The second is a shooter game, created by American Riot. It organizes tournaments where it also gives away $ 50,000. I make inquiries at 10 euros an hour for those who want to improve in combat. Sometimes I replace a maximum of 400 euros a month, sometimes nothing.
Doesn’t the suffering of your parents weigh on you?
“Yes, of course, from my mother in particular. My father was more of a despot than anything else. With my sister the relationship is not good. I have my own idea of justice: the evil you cause, sooner or later with karma, comes back to you.
Didn’t anyone give you a hand?
«Marco Crepaldi, founder and president of Hikikomori Italia. I did not know that such an association existed, I thought that I was the only one affected by this syndrome. It was a friend who opened my eyes: “In my opinion, you are a hikikomori.” Back home, I started searching the web. I was relieved, I no longer felt alone. I have found that at least 100,000 Italians have the same disorder as me. But it took me five months to decide to write to Crepaldi. Thanks to him I left home to meet him in Milan. He referred me to the psychologist Giovanna Borsetto for a therapy, I started on Skype and continued in person in Mestre ».
Why do you think the phenomenon was born in Japan?
“The youth of that country are subjected to gigantic social pressure. They isolate themselves to avoid the obligation to commit suicide with work to finish first.
Don’t you think that all of humanity has become a collection of loneliness that can only communicate with devices and applications held by a few monopolists?
“Yup. Pay for social networks by selling your data. With Tik Tok, to the Chinese government.”
Do you ever go on vacation?
“The last time I was there at 11 am with my mother and sister, in Jesolo.”
Has being indoors changed your personality?
“It was the offenses I suffered at school that changed it. The isolation made me worse. A friend’s hug makes me ashamed, even if it doesn’t bother me. I miss real human relationships. Through online video games, I met a Swede and a Norwegian. One of them wanted to meet me. What was it for? I used to come here for a week, and then what? I lowered the blind.
And has your body been affected?
“Due to my ailments, the weight has gone from 50 to 100 kilos in a few years. Segregation and sedentary lifestyle brought me to 128. I used to go to the gym, but sweat irritated my skin and scratching took over. Like a bunch of almonds before going to bed, it’s not right.
By living in symbiosis with the computer, could he have become a hacker?
Yes, if I liked programming. But I am not interested in information technology. ‘
Have you ever visited the dark web?
“Just once. They sell us guns, drugs, contraband and other nonsense. All the things I hate.
If he never leaves the house, what good is that samurai hairstyle?
“He’s a character from the television series Vikings, not like a samurai. But you’re right: I don’t need it. But what if a journalist arrives? ».
What worries you about the outside world?
«Being minimized to Formica. You are only worth your work, as much as you can sell yourself, while at school I would have loved to have time to learn how to take photos and record videos.
What advice would you give young people to avoid falling into this whirlpool?
“It is difficult. At first you are not aware of falling into it. Then you become a walking vegetable and defend yourself by locking yourself up like a hedgehog. The discomfort does not become chronic only if the family accepts you and helps you ».
Have you ever moved?
“The last time I cried was before hospitalization. Barricade in my room, I felt abandoned.
What is unhappiness?
In not being able to realize it. I don’t think it’s suitable to start a family. ‘
Have you ever been happy lately?
“Happy happy happy? You take me by surprise with this question.” (Thinks about it for a long time). “He was 4 years old. My grandmother Agnese took me to a farm and made me pet the ducks and donkeys.
What is your state of mind at this very moment?
“I’m glad I talked to you. But I don’t have a projection into the future. I don’t even have hope».
What if one day they told you that Pope Francis wants to meet you?
“I am here, even though I am an atheist. I would ask him: why did God, if he is good, create the insects that in Africa eat the eyes of children? ».
October 8, 2020 (change October 8, 2020 | 07:33)
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